Jaded

You've tried everything in your capability. Done everything you could possibly. And then you dont get it; it doesn't hit you that moment. It hits you later one day, and you feel lost. Totally. And on top of that, you get advice. Do this, try that, this is what you should have done, this is what you need to work upon, this is how you get there, blah. The absurd thing is that the person advising you is trying to help you, but it worsens the situation. Then there is self-doubt, loss of self-esteem, loss of motivation. And you dont know what to do. As time passes by you heal up, gather yourself and struggle again. Only to find yourself going through the same scene, same act, same result. It's just that the other actors have changed. Then you give up the fight. That's when you are jaded.