The captain's call

the ship was a sinkin
and the horizon wasn't avail
thus given the sail
the captain climbed aloft and uttered
"my crew!
we may perish, flounder, or prevail
but let it not be said
that mighty wasn't our heart
you may be thinkin
the ship's sinking
what use is this
I say to you my fellows
with whom I have seen grief and joy
let a moment not be passing by
for we cannot die
until we are alive
so take hold of your posts
man the wheel,
and steady the sail!"

kankar

faiz nadiya ret kankar
pani bahta jaye
bahta jaye

Light

the stars are visible
but far apart
sometimes it's the earthern lamp
who may light your heart

Hear me Wanderer

restless in heart
I do my part
the shoulders are heavy
and the head runs low
I dove deep
now I don't know how
to go back high

O wanderer,
speak thy heart
for the world is forlorn
when love runs dry

Are stars your language
or the night sky?
O wanderer
speak thy heart
for lines are deep
on the faces of passers by

(Searched all his life
the bard
with all his might
to find the solace
of the wanderers light)

Are words your wisdom
or the mountain high
O wanderer
speak thy part
for there's no comfort
in the homeless heart

aimless heart

aimless heart
the streets I wandered
I followed the faces
of passer bys

the roads I turned
the time I squandered
aimless heart
I wondered why
they were there
and here was I

mitti

lau jale maddham
deepak lau jale maddham

tapi woh mitti
jali woh mitti
barse baadal
gili mitti

lau jale maddham
deepak lau jale maddham

jami woh mitti
thani woh mitti
barse badal
bahi woh mitti

lau jale maddham
deepak lau jale maddham

main woh mitti
tu woh mitti
barse badal
maadho mitti

lau jale maddham
deepak lau jale maddham

peepal panchi

sanjh bhayi gaye saaye re
peepal panchi aaye re

woh peepal baithe panchi re
chah chah karte panchi re
jahan peepal dal phailaye re
wahin chain bas aaye re

sanjh bhayi gaye saaye re
peepal panchi aaye re

monsoon wind

main chatakhni kholiyaan
bhini bhini hawa re aayi
main sab bhuliyaan
saans rangon rang purvayi

chatakhni=the window knob
kholiyaan=opened
purvayi=wind from the east?

sikta bhutta

dab tap badal girti baarish
chat chat koyle sikta bhutta
dab tap
chat chat

badal ne
thani aaj hai manmaani
thani aaj hai manmaani
girta paani
girta paani

ruka jo paani
thama jo pani
phir chat chat koyle sikta bhutta
chat chat
chat chat

- random tp. Am trying to depict a passage of time, hope it makes sense. if doesn't, oh well :)

chaah

faiz ki chaukhat par
raat ki sigdi yun jale
yaadon ke mehfil jame
armaanon ki baat chale

raat kalikh gahraye
aangaron ki aanch badhe
faiz gaaye, taan lagaye
man ki saanch rah jaye
baki sab beh jaye

monsoon

faiz jab boonda-baandi aaye
niche ped khada ho jaye
aur amma ki yaad lagaaye
"beta chatri phir ghar bhool aaye"

- zok tha vi

ibadat

jis maidan ke chor
kai lambe ped hai badhe
yaar tu milna kabhi
wahin kisi chanv ke tale

tu bahti dhara milna
tu toot-ta tara milna
faiz jo hum bande milenge
phir ik choti si ibadat kahenge

chal mere sang

madhham hawa main patte yun lehraye
laga jindagi humse kah rahi
chal beh mere sang
main jindagi beh rahi
main jindagi beh rahi

patte = leaves
lehraye = wave
sang = with
beh = flow

dhun

chahakti lau ne mujhse kaha
tu mujhmain hai
main tujhhmain hoon

mehakti mitti ne mujhse kaha
tu mujhmain hai
main tujhmain hoon

main dhuni sunta raha
main dhuni sunta raha

- late night sillyness

lau=flame
chahakti=chirpy,moving
mehakti=fragrant
dhun=passion?

anubhooti

faiz be-baat hi
jo nain bhar aaye
phir kya apne
kya paraye

nain = eyes
anubhooti = experience

ganga-tat

faiz palaken band kiye
har dua mang aaye
shayad bhule se hi
tujhe ek lag jaye

woh

bahti hawa hai
jo darwaze par khadkhadaye
aapne aap aaye
aapne aap jaye

girti baarish hai
jo patre par tadtadaye
aapne aap aaye
aapne aap jaye

yaad main hai
har ek fariyaad main hai
woh apne aap aaye
aapne aap jaye

aankhon ki nami hai
sanson ki thami hai
aapne aap aaye
aapne aap jaye

-okay. we are just getting lofty hear..
-and "apne aap aaye/jaye" seems heard somewhere, can't recollect where. shubha mudgal song maybe..

rang bhar

kai auron ki tasveeren bani hain
tere rangon se
faiz tu jindagi rang bhar
ke tere rangon se
kai aankhen saji hain

kai=many

oh well

Past few months there have been times when I've felt I have grown old. Occasionally I fantasize a retirement. It would be nice to retire to a quiet place where there is a flowing river. A convertible for an occasional get out would be nice, but I wouldn't mind if it's not there. Would be good if there are wise people to sit with. People who can tell stories of the days gone by, and the times to come.

oh well

I listen to radio on my cell these days when I return from work. Today I had just got into the auto, I put my earphones back on and suddenly a tune played that I haven't heard in a while. jai ho. Stirred the inside for a few secs, felt the hollow in the stomach. Came home and ate a lot, stuffed myself up. heh.

tera falak

faiz utha nazar
ji bhar ke dekh
tu tanha nahi
ke falak tere saath hai

falak=star,sky

in that moment

That strip of sky, and those few stars, how far did they carry Gora today from the accusstomed world of his everyday life, and from the well-known round of his daily work! They had watched for ages the rise and fall of countless dynasties, the prayers and efforts of unnumbered centuries; and yet, at the call of one human heart to another from the fathomless depths of life, those stars and that sky seemed to vibrate with some speechless hankering from the verge of the world!

- in "Gora", by Tagore

yahin tak

faiz dekhe tasveeren jage
jo jindagi kabhi apni thi
ab anjani lage

shoot me a star

it's a pretty night tonight
I play a game with the sky
dare you
shoot a star past me by

bheetar

faiz pooche ghalib se
jis-se roshan jindagi har bashinde ki
phadphadati wahi lou tujhmain bhi
aur mujhmain bhi?

bheetar=inside
bashinda=inhabitant
phadphadati=flicker

- I kno it's nonsense :)

us din

shaam dhali hi thi
ki barbast hawa tez chali
tadtadati baarish patre par padi
dil ke kisi kone main
bachpan ki sigdi phir jali

aven hi

tu jaan le jahan
main je karan, main je kahan
thora buzdil hai
magar saacha mera dil hai

- to the world, just like that

banjara

bazar khada faiz muskaraye
jindagi ne kai shahar ghumaye
har shahar se nikale gaye
kabhi apne haathon
kabhi paraye

par kahte hai faiz ka koi ek thikana nahi hai
faiz kai shaharon main basta hai
har bazar main jab mela lagta hai
wahin kahin kisi kone main
faiz phir khada hasta hai

har bazar main jab mela lagta hai
faiz phir khada hasta hai

faith in free air

when dawn broke with fanfare
this I said to the free air
I'll keep my heart
and you keep them fair

soon it was noon and the sun was unfair
but this I said to the free air
I'll hold my heart
and you help my despair

unexpected twilight brought the night
and this I said to the free air
it's dark and I've lost my sight
but you keep my heart
and I'll keep me fair

- random lines after watching dead poet's society

Faith in God is an opening up, a letting go, a deep trust, a free act of love

- Yann Martel, Life of Pi

They say

by sharing you multiply the blessing, so here we go:

I wish both of you a great life together
together, may you have a life full of love and laughter and content

in living
may you share your happiness
and bring joy and warmth to your loved ones
may you rise to your aspirations
be prosperous and healthy
and may you enjoy the small and grand things alike
of this wonderful earth

in times weary
may the friends and family always surround
and may the heart guide you
may you be each other's strength
and may you find care

in life
may you find good company
and there be music, there be dance
may sunshine always grace your home
the night always bring you comfort
and the morning hope

may others be done good by you
may others be good unto you
may you live a life fulfilled

that and all the much more
with all my heart I wish both of you
a beautiful life together

kaafir musafir

maula koi mazar toh bula
ke matha tek aaon
main kaafir hi sahi
par tu chahe toh main sadke jaon

I just wanted to compose something and this is the best I could do. Dont know what it means. Anyways, it's headache time again and I am going to sleep.

summer of 69

A couple of minutes ago it played in some cubicle

"I got my first real six-string
Bought it at the five-and-dime
Played 'til my fingers bled
It was summer of '69

Me and some guys from school
Had a Band and we tried real hard
Jimmy quit and Joey got married
Shoulda known we'd never get far

Oh when I look back now
The summer seems to last forever
And if I had the choice
Ya - I'd always wanna be there
Those were the best days of my life"

I listened carefully. Until someone picked up their phone.

3:00am

and I can't sleep, so I am trying to understand the purpose of life, the universe and my existence. Good idea eh?

After a lot confusion a consensus has emerged. The purpose of life is do something, the universe to help it do something, and my existence is to do something with it. I tell you all this nonsense is a conspiracy by the neighboring nation. That is why I've decided to give them a show cause notice, and wait for their response before I deal with this further.

haar

aisa kyun hai
ki jeet toh sabki hai
haar bas apni hai?

dhairya

dheere dheere re mana
dheere sab kuch hoye
maali seenche sau ghada
ritu aaye phal poye

- Kabir

:)

faiz kal mandir gaye the
ki pir mil jaye
faiz aaj baazaar gaye the
ki bheed mil jaye

chuppi

aap poocho main chup kyun
kya kahen kahne ko nahin
na jindagi samajh main aaye
na khudhi ko jaan paaye

nasamjhi

kitna hum chahen
woh mod phir aayen
aur hum raste badal aayen

some cheese

bandigi kuch yun kabool ho jaye
tere dard phool ho jaye

Irish Blessing

Found this today, here you go.

A soothing music video here with ireland pics
...
I wish you not a path devoid of clouds, nor a life on a bed of roses,
Not that you might never need regret,
nor that you should never feel pain
No, that is not my wish for you

My wish for you is:
That you might be brave in times of trial,
when others lay crosses upon your shoulders
when mountains must be climbed and chasms are to be crossed,
when hope can scarce shine through

That every gift God gave you might grow with you
and let you give your gift of joy to all who care for you

That you may always have a friend who is worth that name,
whom you can trust and who helps you in times of sadness,
Who will defy the storms of daily life at your side

One more wish I have for you:
That in every hour of joy and pain you may feel God close to you.
This is my wish for you and for all who care for you.
This is my hope for you now and forever

ek onkar

We were driving once, this song played and you turned up the volume. So here we go again my friend:

ek onkar satnam kartapurakh
nirmoh nirvair akaal murat
ajuni sabham
guru parsad jap aad sach jugaad sach
hai bhi sach nanak hose bhi sach
soche soch na ho wai
jo sochi lakh waar
chhupe chhup na howai
je laai har lakhtaar
ukhiya pukh na utari

je banna puriya paar
sahasyanpa lakh woh hai
ta ek na chale naal
ke ve sach yaara hoi ae
ke ve kude tutte paal
hukum rajai chalna nanak likheya naal

Movie Name: Rang De Basanti (2006)
Singer: Harshdeep Kaur
Music Director: Rahman AR
Lyrics: Prasoon Joshi

I feel so helpless tonight.

antheen

duniya sawal pe sawal poochti hai
kahti hai jawab pharmayen
kya kahen ki
jhoot hum kah nahi sakte
sach hum bata nahi paayen

thokaren

jab thokar par thokar mili
kadam yun ladkhadaye
ki chalna mushqil ho gaya
dil kuch aise baitha
ki sambhalna mushqil ho gaya

Split

aaj ki raat hum bate do worlds main
ek main hum hain aur ek main man hai

- that can be a movie line. maybe? no?

zor ka jhatka :D

woh itni aasani se kah gaye
hum bas dekhte rah gaye
ham samandar main bah gaye
woh ret pe rah gaye

- dont ask me what that means. I dont kno.

khona?

hum ajnabi the
ajnabi rah gaye
haath se samay ke moti
yunhi chale gaye

The City Sleeps

It's a beautiful night tonight. The moon shines brightly and the clouds are spread beside. I can see the same stars I could see from boulder, only a little fainter. They stay with you dont they :). A gentle breeze flows. And the city sleeps. With it's millions of teeming lights, few in each house, the city sleeps. It will awaken tomorrow, and hustle and bustle will begin anew, afresh.

but tonight
under the faint moonlight
the gaze of the stars
and caress of the breeze
the city sleeps

sawal

hum toh behaal hi acche the
ki tumne haal pooch liya
jiska jawab hume khud maloom nahi
woh sawal pooch liya

Shayari

Heard some amazing shayari on Urdu channel. Sample this:

bichade, do dil, aadhi raat
le aaye barsaat
badal, barse, ek pal
aankhen barse saari raat

- dont know the name

hai mobahhabt pe yakin woh aane wale hain
kismat dekhiye ki woh urdu jabaan wale hai
kar deta main mohabbat aam magar
mere khilaaf khandan wale hain
ladne ka shauq toh dushmano ko bhi nahi magar
hume ladwate .. darymiyaan wale hain

- dont know the name

jindagi main aaye ho
pyaar main dhalna bhi seekh lo
baad main basana chandralok ko
pahle dharti par chalna bhi seekh lo

All this was from this show called mehfil e mushaira

ahmiyat

waise toh jindagi main
har roz nayi subah
har roz nayi shaam hai
par chooi unchaaiyaan jo
woh tere hi naam hai

waise toh jindagi main
har roz aagaaz hai
har roz anjaam hai
par dekhi gahraiyaan jo
woh tere hi naam hai

We likes this song today

kaise mujhe. Some times, like and life don't match. But what to do, one cant reason one likes, and one cant get away from ones life. It wouldn't be liking then :), and it wouldn't be life then. Makes nonsense?

This morning

Do not say, "It is morning," and dismiss it with a name of yesterday. See it for the first time as a newborn child that has no name.

- Tagore

It is easier said than done. But such is the wonder of a newborn, it makes grown ups smile the smile they used to, when they were kids. Of innocence.

hosla

ek baar phir kamar kas le yaar
tu daud ke jindagi se mil
phir kya hai jeet
aur kya hai haar

bekhabar

itne khanjar chale hain aiye bekhabar
faiz jaan gaye marna kya hoga
yahi soch ke jeete hain magar
ke shayad in haalaat par
aanson tera bhi tapka hoga

- being theatrical

nostalgic

ek tu hi nahi hai jindagi main
aashiyan hamare aur bhi hain

- the irony is in the title :)

depart

The time has come to cross the sea. I leave the land behind but I take the city in me. I leave the people behind but I take their love in me.

for we may not often meet
or we may never meet
is it not enough that we had it sweet
and so indeed, I depart,
with a content in my heart

Tagore said

Depth of friendship does not depend on length of acquaintance

:)

it's a new day
the sun rises
and mountains say
cheer up
we are right here
not far away :)

- and that is our silly rhyme for the day

Once more

the flatirons are glowing white against a clear blue sky, after fresh snow the day before yesterday.

life

we meet, we come close
and we part
having seen what we have seen
having been what we have been
I think to myself
but what else is life
that oneness
that time we shared
that meeting of the heart

rememberance

I close my eyes and find that night
when I sat beneath the twinkling stars
the fire kept the cold at bay
and the logs burned steadfast
silent the woods mingled with the wind
and the noisy river gushed past
I close my eyes and find that fire
yellow and bright
which had lit up that night
when time passed slowly
even though the flames rose fast
when I sat there watching
and the logs burned to the last

fall off

when you are unsettled
and the mind's ravaged by thoughts
who said what
who won
and who lost
you dont know how to dispel the darkness
and things are frost
what do you do?
maybe, you spare the other a thought
but compassion my friend
cannot be, where there is me
it's easier said than had
and so, we fall off

alone

you are all alone
all by yourself
with no one to lean on to
no one to go to
nothing to hold on to
when you have the burden of past
and hopelessness of future
in that moment
you become resigned
or go insane
you sleep
or you cry
or stare vaguely at the sky
in that moment
what else can you do?
maybe look at fate in the eye
my friend,
it is easier said than done

the fight

a part of me is the society that I come from, and a part of me is the freedom
a part of me is the fate, and a part of me is the desire
in the end, a man fights himself
fights his own, said I
fights alone, said my friend

we moves soon

to hindustan. we wraps up all our stuff. we empties the closets, we finds old things. first paycheck, forgotten mails, neglected coins. we sorts the valuables mechanically from the invaluables. It fills our heart, the settled dust. What is it they say? Yeh death. This ending of something. This is the ending of our life here. Inevitably, the people will become distant, no matter what they say now, what we say now. And as time passes by, we'll have pictures left to tell the tales. Not flickr, mental and dental (Here now we call upon witness to God for all the dental work we've undergone). Why does this happen. Why do we become attached, and why do we have to leave then. Why is this our nature. Why. and why do the teeth decay. Stupid teeth.

we remembers

chappa chappa tonight.

roshan

shahar tha
pata nahi sooraj ki kiran par ho sawar
teri yaad is shahar aayi thi
ya ke teri yaad par sawar ho kar
sooraj ki kiran is shahar aayi thi

aiye khudai

kis kone jaaon
tu hi bata
koi kona aisa hai
jahan main nahi?

kis ke paas le jaoon
tu hi bata
koi dil aisa hai
jise dard nahi?

kis mitti ka banaya hai
tu hi bata
koi mitti aisi hai
jismain gard nahi?

(gard = sand) last 4 lines are meaningless juxtaposition. maybe.

beeti

main abhi kuch kah bhi nahi paya tha
ki subah ki shaam ho gayi
woh aankhen jo subah kurbaan huin thi
shaam anjaan ho gayin

main abhi kuch soch bhi nahi paya tha
ki taare nikal aaye
main wahin tanha rah gaya
baki saare aage nikal aaye

ummeed

yahi ke phir khet main phasal lehlahaye
kisaan agar thori himmat kar jaye

udhaar

ki jindagi hai
jab tak hai
jam ke jee
kabhi kabhi lagta hai
bas ek yahi baat thi
jo maine hamesha nahi ki

dhoop

aaj subah ki dhoop phir mili
ke musafir tu akela nahi
woh dhoop tere saath hai

you r fired

kismet ne milna likha hoga
toh milenge
nahi toh kismet ko fire kar denge

you r fired

- zok tha vi

sukoon

tera milna nahi
tera hona hi sahi
khushiyaan apni nahi
tumhari hi sahi
sukoon yahi
sukoon yahi

jindagi

tere sang itni badi ho gayi
ki jab bikhri
toh sametna mushqil ho gaya

bande

zis picture ka hero tu hai
us picture ka zero main hai
director ne tujhe woh role de diya
jiski thesis maine kari thi

- in jest

jeet

jab tak diya
imaan se diya
jitna kiya
ji jaan se kiya

haar

hum us mod par mile
jahan bichadna tay tha
ke jo kadam duniya naap aaye
woh raaste na milaa paaye

Motto

I have a dream of my own
A life of my own
jo maine chuni hai
acchi buri
haar jeet jo bhi hai
meri apni hai

- a friend on life

maskhari

dekhiye jindagi ki
ki hamari jaan jab jahan atki
wahin takdir ne tamasha khada kar diya

jung

barambaar jindagi ne jab patthar par de mara
hum phir uthe, aur jindagi ko lalkara
ke jo haar kar baith jayen
un logon main se hum nahi

wajood

main ko jis may se bhariye
wahi nasha chadh jayega
usi ke hone se
tera hona ban jayega

mohabbat

log kahte hain ki sab kuch hai
hum poochte hain baki kya hai?
maykhane main may nahi
toh saki kya hai

bande

tu aansuon ko rok nahi
bahne de
ke dil thora aur paak ho jayega

mohabbat

kitna bhi chahoon
ki main kuch aur paaon
lekin mohabbat wahin
jahan ghans ki chaukhat pe
subah ki auns jamin
apne aap hai
apne aap nahi

-random, meaningless loftiness

dohraav

itni baar wahi khyaal dohraye
ki dar hai khyalon main kahin mohabbat na kho jaye
duniyadaari ke chakkar main kahin zaalim na ho jaye

- trying to fight politics at work, being theatrical

jigar

jahan jeetne ki gunzaish nahi
marna tay hai
jo aisi baazi khele
use jigar khehte hain

(being fimly :) )

obviously, haar ke jitne wale ko..

e juari dil

jo sab kuch danv par lagaya
jab haare toh dukh lajib hai
haariye magar besahara na baniye
ke mohabbat sirf paane ka naam nahi

achanak

achanak samna hua
hum khade rah gaye
woh muskara ke chal diye
hum dekhte rah gaye

- a friend on suddenly meeting rahul bose in a mall

hum chup hain ki

kya baat karein tere ashq ki
hamari ankh se ho kar gira hai
kya baat karein tere dard ki
hamare dil se ho kar guzara hai

aakhir

kaise faiz yahan aa khade
na samay saath hai na muqaddar
aur dil kaafir

(kaafir=unbeliever)

sparsh

ke faiz hum ghadiyan na rok paye
haath choota saath choota
hum pardes chale aaye
lekin woh sparsh phir bhi na jaaye

Bazicha e atfal

is a ghazal by Ghalib. Don't understand it completely, but like it anyways. Link here and translation in comments.

Oh this song

is good. That's the Kailash Kher version, and here's the Atif Aslam version, if you like him.

kya kahen ki

kabhi socha na tha ki faiz aise marenge
ki log baatein karenge

(being theatrical)

Snow

It has snowed in boulder today. Our appointment was at 5. I had come home from lunch after work, so I could prepare all the documents early. I wore my best shirt. It was still snowing at 4:30 when I got out. I took a last couple of snaps from the digital camera, and headed for the bank, where I was to handover the title. It was snowing heavily. The song 'bhoola tujhe' played, I turned the volume to max, rolled down the windows to feel the snow. Then just out of emotion or love don't know which, I cleaned her dashboard, I patted my car and teared up uncontrollably. Before I let her go, I was with her with all my heart, just that once, for a few moments. And it snowed today. We exchanged some docments, the new owner and I, signed a few things, I got a check and dropped her off to the new owner's residence. I had accidentally given my house keys along with my car keys. That was embarrassing. Anyways, told the new owner a couple of things, like to use 87 fuel, and not run it on low gas, and that was it. My friend who was with me at the bank, drove me back. And it snowed today. We went out to get some soup, my friend and I, and I counted the number of people who had driven her. I was happy that almost all of my close friends and family had driven her..oh I forgot including my little niece, she's held the steering too! And it has snowed today. I love the snow. Before I let her go, I wanted to be with her with all my heart, this once in snow. And I got to do it. Today, it was good luck. My friend fed me and drove me up the flagstaff road and we stood there watching the boulder valley covered in clouds. And that was it.

Unsettled

To learn the ways of the practical people. Learnt that they choose the better offer in all matters. That comes first, everything else later.

Sprint to Catch

I like running. And more so sprinting, randomly, to catch a train, bus, or a meeting in the office. And so I like this first scene in this video a lot, the background score simply amazing and fitting the scene